Big Dreams, Big Problems

I dream. That, in itself is not a problem, but when I dream I will get upset when people don’t share my dreams, laugh at them, or the dreams don’t come true. To put it simply, I dream big dreams and have big problems.

My ultimate dream is self-sufficiency. My dream for this year was to raise (and butcher) 25 Cornish hens and to raise feed for my goats…not just some feed, but a year’s worth. I didn’t think it was too much, I mean I’ve had much, much, MUCH bigger dreams to accomplish in that time frame. I thought I wasn’t asking for too much. I had narrowed it down to just two.

I had it all planed out: I would plant a half acre of oats, harvest them, then plant the same plot with a winter crop of roots. The first problem was how to harvest the oats. Well, that was easy: scythe it. I just bought a scythe this fall from a neighbor.

The second problem was how to prepare the ground. This was a little harder. Clay soil is hard on tiller and besides, a half-acre of tilling…Mom tried to help me see that it might not work out as I planned.

Okay, I admit it, I got upset. I felt like my dream was being pushed back. It wasn’t working out, why did that always happen to me? I sat and moped (By the way, never mope because it brings on self-pity.).

Finally, Mom had enough and told me to go clean the bathroom. You know, it’s amazing what you can think of while cleaning the toilet! I realized that it didn’t matter if my dreams didn’t turn out to be my definition of perfect. Maybe all I can do it plant a pot of oats, but what does that matter? Dreams, wishes, and goals are all good and fine, but I can’t hang my life on them—I can’t idolize them.

Norm Wakefield says in Equipped to Love that “The spirit of idolatry tempts man to look to the creatures for happiness…When we worship and serve someone or something, we give it the power to make us miserable.” That was exactly what I was doing! I was giving my dreams the power to make me miserable. Wow, to think that I was breaking the first commandment! Not only that, but look at 1 Corinthians 5:9-11; 6:9; 10:7, 14; 2 Corinthians 6:16, Galatians 5:19-23, Ephesians 5:5, Colossians 3:5, 1 Peter 4:3, Revelation 21:8; 22:15. I beg you to look these up. It really shows how important it is that we don’t idolize someone or something. If we get this wrong, we not only hurt Jesus, but we run the risk of ending in the lake of fire!

“Little children keep yourselves from idols. Amen.” 1 John 5:21